The Embarrassing Beginning

So I am starting a new, and very embarrassing blog. I have to admit that I have let myself go. After having Vanessa life has really taken it's toll on me. I like to use the 'I'm so much older' excuse but come on, if I really get honest with myself, I've let myself go. I have not put myself first and although I like to use the kids and Jim and the house as an excuse, it's not. I just haven't made myself make the time for exercise, eating right, etc. Well, NO MORE!!!! I am officially starting. I had these dreams and visions of how quickly I was going to get the weight off after having Vanessa but now, almost 18 months later, I weigh more than I did after having her and I'm very frustrated myself. I have decided that instead of sitting on the couch and drowning myself in Oreos, milk and Diet Coke I am going to make a change. I am working with my EXTREMELY sweet brother in law and starting a four week diet/exercise program. I met with Dave on Friday and got my first week of eating (which is pretty much not eating ;)) and exercise. Although I am sad about having to give up my favorite food (junk), and most likely my treasured sleep (since Vanessa still isn't sleeping all night and the only way I'll get my exercise in is to do it before she wakes up in the morning) I am SUPER excited because I know if I follow this workout and eating plan, I will see results. So my journey is now going to begin. This blog is mostly for me. Okay, who am I kidding, it's just for me. But after watching Julie and Julia, I felt like I need a way to track my journey to me. This isn't going to just be about my eating and working out, it's going to be about the entire process. How I feel, the good days, the bad days, etc. It's my journal for this process. So, to begin, I decided to post a very, VERY embarrassing picture of myself. Even though I hate it, I'm going to post it with hopes that someday soon I can post a much, MUCH better and leaner picture of myself. So, here we go. This fun journey is beginning!!